omigoshhh.. omigoshh.. i think i just found my Mr Right... *pengsan*

yesterday was my girls day out day with my dramaqueeners.. hahaha.. had a girly talk on those comfy couch at the dome... and i told syomir tht guys are so poyo nowadays (ehh, no hard feeling zexy hombre out there!).. well, it is actually almost true what.. guys are poyo, girls are so dramatic.. so when poyo meets drama, jadi la podra or yoma.. thts the beauty of life kan.. it's ying yang, understanding of how things work, the balance of life, black & white, the good & the bad..
the drama queeners




nways, just realized tht, i has been almost 2 years i didnt cry my heart out.. i've kinda blocked myself from getting emotionally involve with anything.. and now, i just dont how to let it out already.. padan muka.. i am heartless at the moment.. which is not good.. uhuk uhuk... but, after watching Transformer yesterday, i just realized tht I DONT REALLY NEED A HOMBRE TO MAKE ME GO ALL GUGU GAGA.. robot is mucho better than boys.. especially optimus prime.. damn! he is freaking zexy ok.. i never tot tht my heart could pound so hard wacthing a robot in action.. hahaha.. he is hot.. tak senang duduk ok!! terkesima, berkocak dada ku.. hehehehe.. hey, robots are always superhard & they can self lubricate.. hahahahahahha!! its like every girls dream ok.. and for someone who is heartless, i guess robot will be a perfect match.. so optimus prime, come to momma... :D

am watching transformer again tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.. it is so freaking awesome.. the best movie ever for moi.. honestly!!!

nways, on my previous post, i told u abt the soul mate dude aite.. well, ive been running away from him for the past 4 years.. the reason behind it is, he's already married with 2 children.. am happy for him.. we were extremely close back then.. i was like with him 24-7.. but the feeling i had for him was not convincingly enough for me to fall in love with him.. is not tht i never try to let myself in.. i just can't.. it feels awkward..he was extremely frustrated but i never stop from being his friend.. and he wanted more, eventho he's married, so i said tata!!

and for the past few months, he's been pestering me with his phone calls and sms'es.. it really freaked me out.. at 1st, i answered his call and i agreed to see him.. well, i tot, things should have change by now.. but i was dead wrong.. he just scared the crap out of me.. urrrghhh.. he is a daddy, a husband and it is so wrong for him to say the thing he said to me.. damn! nways, i refused to answer his call till 2 days ago.. he called me from another no and i answered.. at tht time i was in klcc shopping with my girls.. and when i heard his voice, my whole body shivers.. felt like fainting.. i felt stupid coz i answered the call.. it was like a nightmare.. n he was a bit harsh.. told me tht he was extremely frustrated with me.. and begging me not to MIA again.. i wanted to cry at tht time coz i just hate to be in tht situation.. why can he accept the fact tht he has his responsibility to his family.. to make them happy.. a husband is the man of the house, so he should be in command if things didnt really seem to be working ok with the family.. he has to find a way to make it works.. bugger!! pls stop bugging me! pls pls pls.. shhhhessshhh..

pheewwwwwwww... i let it out!!! yes, i felt better now! oh btw, the mr right tht i was referring to is optimus prime ok.. hehehe.. ok la peeps, dah merapu panjang! later i will tell u abt the paranormal thingy tht me & sherina encounter last nite.. spooky ok!! daa..

Labels: drama n flick, picha-picha

como estas? genki desuka ima chotto isogashii.. :| sorry la for the lack of updates.. gomen ne!

hey, in few more months, 5 months to be exact, i will be 30.. huissshhh.. demmit.. time flies huh!! 30, single and bored.. hahahahhahaa.. hows tht! its not so bad actually.. am enjoying my singlehood vida and age is just a freaking number.. i may be 30 but am still 25 inside... :p

why am i still single..??? most of my frens said tht am to choosy.. but i dun thinkso.. coz there is not much to choose from in the 1st place.. hahaha.. lame huh! ok ok, i think i found my soulmate.. he is cool n he understands me completely.. and vice versa.. i think.. but i dun think i will end up with him coz i just cant.. sometimes, if u know too much abt someone (when i say too much, i mean tooooooooooo much!!! like almost everything) it's a bit difficult to be with him.. u know wht he is capable of and u know that his expectation and so on.. so its hard.. and i just cant picture myself with him.. so tht is it la kan..

i'll go out occasionally.. but i dun call it a date coz i loathe dating.. hahahaha.. i like it to be casual.. relax and no expectation.. tht is mucho better.. well, who am i kidding y'all.. am i whining! fork... i guess, its the age thingy.. buta buta buta (translate it in japanese.. :p)

i am extremely fine with the way my life is now.. seriously.. working from home.. haivng the luxury to plan what i wanna do for meself.. its cool.. and 'work' really keeps me distracted from the lonely-schmoly thingy.. hahahhahaha!!!

neways is, i wanna show u guys my zexy hombre.. err or atleast how i want him to look like.. hahahahaha.. he is my kimu taku!! yesh.. sgt kakkoii kan.. hahahhahahaa... if u guys know anyone who looks like him, pls do call me.. *wink*


last but not least, here is a song for you, my kimu taku!

Wait For You!

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know; so now I’m all alone

You could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can't stand
And all my tears they keep runnin’ down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine, it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away
(When) Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me?
You’re still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying

Baby why can’t we just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough

Labels: anecdote, mi musica